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\"nazan-maksudyan\"<\/a>Nazan Maksudyan\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Son s\u00fcrat giden bir tren, i\u00e7inde \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa, \u015fen \u00e7ocuklar, g\u00fcne\u015f, tarlalar, a\u011fa\u00e7lar.. \u0130nsan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar vard\u0131r, diyor Antranik Dzarugyan ve ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a mutludur. \u201c\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuz olmad\u0131, \u00e7u<\/em><\/strong>\u0308<\/em><\/strong>nku<\/em><\/strong>\u0308<\/em><\/strong> Ermeni\u2019ydik ve yetimdik.\u201d Antranik Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n \u00f6zya\u015fam\u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc, hayat\u0131n\u0131n trajedisini yetimhanede ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnleriymi\u015f gibi kurguluyor. Yazar, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn geri kalan\u0131nda hep hissetti\u011fi bo\u015flu\u011fu, ruhundaki huzursuzlu\u011fu, yar\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden, adeta ka\u00e7arak ya\u015famas\u0131n\u0131 \u0131srarla \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun ya\u015fanmadan bitmi\u015f olmas\u0131na, ya da (\u00e7ocuksu) masumiyetini erken kaybetmi\u015f olmas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131yor.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Oysa hissettiklerinin esas m\u00fcsebbibi ne Halep\u2019teki Amerikan yetimhanesi, ne yetimhaneyi y\u00f6neten gaddar Mayrig, ne de birbirinden ha\u015far\u0131, k\u00f6t\u00fc niyetli arkada\u015flar\u0131. Antranik\u2019in trajedisi yetim olmak de\u011fil. Ger\u00e7ekten kaybetti\u011fi \u015fey ne ailesi ne de \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu. Bunlardan daha \u00f6nemli bir \u015feyi yitiriyor k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk olarak: \u0130nanc\u0131n\u0131. \u0130nsanl\u0131\u011fa olan inanc\u0131n\u0131, iyili\u011fe olan inanc\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fczel bir gelece\u011fe, mutlu olman\u0131n m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funa dair inanc\u0131n\u0131 yitiriyor Antranik. 1915\u2019te soyk\u0131r\u0131m\u0131 ya\u015fayan y\u00fcz binlerce Ermeni gibi o da yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde adaletin h\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcrmedi\u011fini fark ediyor. \u0130yi insanlar\u0131n kaderinin mutlaka ayd\u0131nl\u0131k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bug\u00fcnle yar\u0131n\u0131n ili\u015fkisinin zannetti\u011fi gibi devaml\u0131l\u0131k arz etmedi\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcyor. B\u00f6yle bir d\u00fcnyada her \u015fey bo\u015f, her \u015fey anlams\u0131z, her \u015fey h\u00fck\u00fcms\u00fcz oluyor art\u0131k onun i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n

\u201cOnlar her yerde, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu olmayan arkada\u015flar\u0131m. Aralar\u0131nda \u00e7ok zenginleri var, sefilleri, sanatk\u00e2rlar\u0131, ba\u015faranlar\u0131, hayat\u0131 \u0131skalayanlar\u0131 var. Onlar i\u00e7in art\u0131k hayat\u0131n bir s\u0131rr\u0131 yok, g\u00fcnlerin s\u00fcrprizi yok, mutlulu\u011fun albenisi yok. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu yok.\u201d<\/p>\n

Dzarugyan \u00c7ocuklu\u011fu Olmayan Adamlar adl\u0131 eserinin giri\u015f b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde, ruhundaki t\u00fcm yaralar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011funda a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 vurguluyor. Ermeni yetimlerin \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131n\u0131n unufak edildi\u011fini, bu y\u00fczden de, kendi de d\u00e2hil t\u00fcm arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131ndan nefret etti\u011fini dile getiriyor. Belki kitab\u0131n yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6nemde y\u00fckselen psikanalitik yakla\u015f\u0131mlar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fa bu kadar \u00f6nem atfetmesi yazar\u0131 da etkilemi\u015f ve hep hissetti\u011fi varolu\u015fsal kayg\u0131lar\u0131n faturas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ocuklu\u011funa \u00e7\u0131karmas\u0131na yol a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f olabilir. Oysa yukar\u0131daki al\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131n son c\u00fcmlesinde \u201conlar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu yok\u201d yerine \u201cinanc\u0131 yok\u201d yaz\u0131labilirdi. Dzarugyan i\u00e7in hayat\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131n olmamas\u0131, onun gelecek g\u00fcnlere dair umut beslememesi, mutluluk pe\u015finden ko\u015fmamas\u0131n\u0131n sebebi yetim olmas\u0131, sefil bir yetimhane ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131 s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f olmas\u0131 de\u011fil. Sadece \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n de\u011fil, kad\u0131n erkek, gen\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 Anadolu\u2019daki t\u00fcm Ermenilerin insan\u0131n insana yapabilece\u011fi k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ve vah\u015fetin en beterini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f olmalar\u0131.<\/p>\n

\"cocuklugu-olmayan-adamlar\"<\/a>\u201c\u0130nsanlar\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fcklerine dair \u00f6yle \u00f6rnekler bilirim ve insan denilen yarat\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u00e7g\u00f6zl\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6yle iyi tan\u0131r\u0131m ki her t\u00fcrl\u00fc canavarl\u0131\u011fa inanabilirim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Yetimlerin her pazar ziyaret etti\u011fi Protestan kilisesinde vaizin anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7ocuklara yard\u0131m \u00e7ana\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7almamay\u0131, bilakis kiliseye yard\u0131mda bulunmay\u0131 telkin eden \u201cG\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f Merdiven\u201d k\u0131ssas\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan, alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Ha\u00e7ik\u2019in \u201cB\u00f6yle uyduruk hik\u00e2ye duymad\u0131m!\u201d demesi bundan olsa gerektir. Ha\u00e7ik\u2019in annesi, babas\u0131, t\u00fcm karde\u015fleri, g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6n\u00fcnde \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, \u00e7ocuk onlar\u0131n nas\u0131l ve nerede \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcklerini, her birinin son s\u00f6zlerini akl\u0131na kaz\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. En son \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclen annesi olur, \u00fcstelik yeni do\u011fmu\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z karde\u015fini emzirirken… Elbette bu \u00e7ocuk cennete ula\u015fan bir g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f merdivenin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ve yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z iyiliklerle oraya ula\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131za inanmaz, elbette kilisedeki tabaktan bozuk para a\u015f\u0131r\u0131r, elbette \u201cMerdiven filan, bunlar bo\u015f \u015feyler!\u201d diyebilir. Memesinde bebe\u011fiyle bir annenin, \u00fcstelik \u00f6z annesinin \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6ren biri art\u0131k neye inanabilir ki hayatta?<\/p>\n

Yetimhanedeki \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu, g\u00fcndelik hayat\u0131n ritmini, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n kendi aralar\u0131ndaki ve e\u011fitmenlerle olan ili\u015fkilerini, arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n tehcir yolunda ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 en ince ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131na kadar anlatan Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n, kendi ailesinin ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enler konusunda suskun olmas\u0131 \u00e7arp\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00fcr\u00fcn\u2019den Halep\u2019e nas\u0131l geldiklerinden, t\u00fcm aile fertlerine ne oldu\u011fundan, ni\u00e7in Halep\u2019teki yetimhaneye b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan hi\u00e7 bahsetmez. Annesinin onu almak i\u00e7in yetimhane idaresine ba\u015fvurmas\u0131ndan s\u00f6z ederken, \u201cAnnem beni bulmu\u015f\u201d ifadesini kullan\u0131r. Anne Yeranuhi\u2019nin be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndaki Antranik\u2019i neden Halep\u2019teki yetimhaneye b\u0131rakmak mecburiyetinde kald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, o s\u0131rada kendisinin nas\u0131l deliler gibi g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden s\u00f6z etmez. Ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 detaylar\u0131yla anlat\u0131rken kendi ac\u0131lar\u0131 konusunda sessizdir. Suskunluk, \u015fahsen maruz kald\u0131klar\u0131 \u015fiddeti kelimelerle anlatamayan soyk\u0131r\u0131m kurtulanlar\u0131na ait t\u00fcm tan\u0131kl\u0131klarda g\u00f6r\u00fclen yayg\u0131n bir durumdur.<\/p>\n

Yazar Yervant Odyan\u2019\u0131n yetimhane ziyareti s\u0131ras\u0131ndaki, kendisini a\u011f\u0131rlamak i\u00e7in haz\u0131rl\u0131klar\u0131 yap\u0131lan kutlama ortam\u0131yla taban tabana z\u0131t sessizli\u011fi de ayn\u0131 y\u00fczle\u015fme g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden kaynaklan\u0131r. Hediye ve e\u011flence vaadiyle heveslenen \u00e7ocuklar, kar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131nda, ciddi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalm\u0131\u015f, simsiyah giyinmi\u015f ve konu\u015fmakta g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7eken bir adam g\u00f6r\u00fcnce hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na u\u011frarlar. Sadece hediye de\u011fil, ayn\u0131 zamanda e\u011flence pe\u015finde olduklar\u0131 i\u00e7in, ba\u015fka bir deyi\u015fle h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00e7ocuk olduklar\u0131 i\u00e7in, salonu alk\u0131\u015f k\u0131yamet \u015fenlik yerine \u00e7evirirler, durmadan \u015famata yaparlar. Oysa Odyan\u2019\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan sadece, \u201cYetimler, sizi \u00e7ok seviyorum\u2026\u201d c\u00fcmlesi \u00e7\u0131kar.<\/p>\n

\u201cDer Zor\u2019dan yeni d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7ile \u00e7ekmi\u015f bir Ermeni yazar kendi soyundan binlerce yetime ne s\u00f6yleyebilirdi? Her bahar, F\u0131rat\u2019\u0131n azg\u0131n sular\u0131n\u0131n ana babalar\u0131n\u0131n kemiklerini par\u00e7a par\u00e7a k\u0131y\u0131ya att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6ren o yetimlere…\u201d<\/p>\n

Marc Nichanian, soyk\u0131r\u0131m ve tan\u0131kl\u0131k edebiyat\u0131 \u00fczerine eserlerinde, Ermeni soyk\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fayanlar\u0131n, aralar\u0131ndaki en b\u00fcy\u00fck yazarlar\u0131n bile, neden bu konuda yazma g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00e7ekti\u011fini \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Ya\u015fanan vah\u015fet ve \u015fiddetin ard\u0131ndan, hele de insanl\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131kma durumlar\u0131nda dilin s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 birden kendini g\u00f6stermi\u015f, dilsel ifade yetene\u011fi yetersiz kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Kelimeler kifayetsizdir. Dilimiz bir insan\u0131n b\u00f6ylesine vah\u015fice yok edilmesini anlatacak s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerden yoksundur. Soyk\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n tan\u0131klar\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcn bitti\u011fi yerdedir. Bu ya\u015fananlardan sonra ne s\u00f6yleyebilir, ne yapabilir, neye inanabilirler ki?<\/p>\n

Yirminci y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131 ya\u015fayanlar, Eric Hobsbawm\u2019\u0131n tabiriyle ‘A\u015f\u0131r\u0131l\u0131klar \u00c7a\u011f\u0131’n\u0131 g\u00f6renler, Ayd\u0131nlanma\u2019dan itibaren b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz, insanl\u0131\u011fa, ilerlemeye, adalete ve iyili\u011fe inanc\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn misliyle kaybetti\u011fimize tan\u0131k olacaklard\u0131r. Bug\u00fcn ta\u015f ta\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcnde kalmam\u0131\u015f Halep\u2019i g\u00f6ren bizler art\u0131k neye inanabiliriz ki?<\/p>\n

Fakat ya\u015famak i\u00e7in inanmak gerekmez. \u0130nsan i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fcsel olarak ya\u015fama ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. Hayatta kalma m\u00fccadelesi ve travmay\u0131 yan yana d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek z\u0131t kutuplar\u0131 birle\u015ftirmeyi gerektirir. \u0130nsan\u0131n hayatta kalma g\u00fcd\u00fcs\u00fc, bir \u00e7e\u015fit uyu\u015fturucu gibi travmay\u0131 ba\u015f edilebilir k\u0131lar. Ya\u015famak i\u00e7in, ya\u015famay\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in insanlar duygular\u0131n\u0131, ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 bast\u0131r\u0131r, g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri vah\u015feti unutur, adeta sinir u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 uyu\u015fturur. Antranik gibi binlerce dul ve yetim Ermeni, soyk\u0131r\u0131mdan sa\u011f kurtulmay\u0131 ba\u015faranlar, \u00f6lenle \u00f6lmez, ya\u015famaya devam eder. Ba\u015flar\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en ve tan\u0131k olduklar\u0131 cehennemi s\u0131radanla\u015ft\u0131ran bir uyu\u015fmu\u015fluk i\u00e7inde hayatlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n \u201c\u0130\u00e7imi kemiren huzursuzluk\u201d diye and\u0131\u011f\u0131, hep bir yere gitme, fakat gitti\u011fi yerde kalamay\u0131p oradan da ka\u00e7ma arzusu unutma ve uyu\u015fma ihtiyac\u0131yla ili\u015fkilidir. Milan Kundera\u2019n\u0131n roman\u0131 Yava\u015fl\u0131k bu tema \u00fczerine kuruludur: Yava\u015fl\u0131k ve hat\u0131rlama aras\u0131nda, h\u0131z ve unutma aras\u0131nda gizli bir ba\u011f vard\u0131r. Yolda y\u00fcr\u00fcyen biri aniden bir \u015fey hat\u0131rlar ama detaylar\u0131 kafas\u0131nda oturtamazsa, gayri ihtiyari ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015flat\u0131r. Tam tersine, ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7mi\u015f ac\u0131 bir olay\u0131 unutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan biri h\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 artt\u0131r\u0131r, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0131zland\u0131rarak hen\u00fcz haf\u0131zas\u0131nda \u00e7ok taze olan \u015feyden uzakla\u015fabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Dzarugyan da yetimhanede unutarak ve hayata tutunarak ayakta kald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izer.<\/p>\n

\u201cManuk \u00e7abucak unutuldu. Anaokulu\u2019nda her \u015fey hemen unutulurdu. Hele hele \u00f6l\u00fcm ve ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na gelen talihsizlikler… Amans\u0131z bir hayat kavgas\u0131 vard\u0131, bizi yiyip bitiren bu karga\u015fa i\u00e7inde b\u00fct\u00fcn duygular\u0131m\u0131z donup kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

H\u0131zlanmak ve unutmak biraz da g\u00fcndelik ya\u015fam\u0131n kendisidir. Eylem h\u00e2linde olmak i\u00e7imizdeki varolu\u015fsal s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 derinlere iter. Daha fazla ya\u015famsal deneyimle sar\u0131p sarmalanmakla ac\u0131lardan ve ruhsal huzursuzluklardan ka\u00e7ar\u0131z. Yeni bir \u015fehre ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131r, i\u015f hayat\u0131m\u0131zda ba\u015far\u0131dan ba\u015far\u0131ya ko\u015far, \u00e7ocuk yapar\u0131z. Dzarugyan, ideal (burjuva) \u00e7ocukluk tahayy\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir \u00e7ocukluk ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in anlat\u0131s\u0131 bir yandan bilin\u00e7 d\u00fczeyinde \u201cBizimki de \u00e7ocukluk muydu\u201d serzeni\u015fi i\u00e7erse de, onun ve arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kazan\u0131m\u0131 vard\u0131r: eylemlilik. Eylemleri sayesinde \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f, hayata tutunmu\u015f, b\u00f6b\u00fcrlenerek anlatacaklar\u0131 say\u0131s\u0131z maceraya at\u0131lm\u0131\u015flard\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnler, haftalar, aylar boyu d\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u00fcz birlikte bisiklete binmeyi \u00f6\u011frendik, misket oynad\u0131k, sinemaya gittik, okuldan ka\u00e7t\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Okuldan ka\u00e7ma rekoru bana aitti ve bu rekoru k\u0131rmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Tam iki ay okula gitmemi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ocuklu\u011fu Olmayan Adamlar bize tam da, Ermeni yetimlerin de \u00e7ocuk oldu\u011funu, \u00e7ocukluk denen deneyimi di\u011fer ya\u015f\u0131tlar\u0131 gibi ya\u015fayabildiklerini anlat\u0131yor. Say\u0131s\u0131z kalp burkan olay\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra, Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7eri\u011fi e\u011flenceyi d\u0131\u015flam\u0131yor. Her \u00e7ocu\u011fun hayali veya en sevilen \u00e7ocuk kitaplar\u0131n\u0131n konusu olan gruplara\/ \u00e7etelere ayr\u0131lmak, sapanla, sopayla kavgaya tutu\u015fmak, okuldan ka\u00e7mak, koleksiyon yapmak, u\u00e7urtma u\u00e7urmak, h\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k yapmak, hazine aramak, yaln\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131na uzak yerlere gitmek, trenle yolculuk gibi e\u011flencelerden bahsediyorum. Yetimhanedeki \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n durmadan oyun oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ser\u00fcven pe\u015finde ko\u015ftu\u011funu, \u015fakac\u0131, muzip, mutlu olduklar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz. Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en maceralar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ba\u015far\u0131 duygusuyla aktard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n da alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izmek gerekir. Kendisiyle gurur duydu\u011fu, \u00f6zg\u00fcvenini tazeleyen hik\u00e2yeler anlat\u0131yor. Anlat\u0131c\u0131y\u0131 kahramana, an\u0131lar\u0131 avant\u00fcre d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n

Annesine kavu\u015fan, yani art\u0131k kimsesiz olmayan, dolay\u0131s\u0131yla hayalini kurdu\u011fu ve evlerin i\u00e7inde ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 varsayd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ger\u00e7ek \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu bundan b\u00f6yle ya\u015fama f\u0131rsat\u0131 oldu\u011funu anlayan Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n t\u00fcm bunlara ra\u011fmen evden ka\u00e7\u0131p arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na d\u00f6nmesi hayli \u00e7arp\u0131c\u0131 bir \u00f6rnek. Hasret kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevgi ve \u015fefkati verecek annesine y\u0131llar sonra kavu\u015fmu\u015fken, \u00fcstelik hi\u00e7 bitmeyen bir i\u015fkence oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi\u011fi yetimhaneden tam kurtulacakken neden deniz k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131ndaki ba\u015fka bir \u015fehirdeki yeni yetimhaneye gitmek istiyor k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Antranik? Elbette \u00e7ocuk\u00e7a bir heves y\u00fcz\u00fcnden. Ana evinde k\u00f6s k\u00f6s oturaca\u011f\u0131na, arkada\u015flar\u0131yla birlikte uzun bir tren yolculu\u011fu yapmak ve yeni bir \u015fehirde yeni bir maceraya at\u0131lmak \u00e7ocu\u011fa \u00e7ok daha cazip geliyor! Anlat\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131nda, aralar\u0131nda ne sevgi ne dostluk oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi\u011fi arkada\u015flar\u0131yla asl\u0131nda ger\u00e7ekten arkada\u015f oldu\u011funu, g\u00fczel g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7irdiklerini hat\u0131rlamadan edemiyor. \u00dcstelik bu yeni macerada \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n ne kadar e\u011fleneceklerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e i\u00e7i daral\u0131yor: \u201cHepsi gidecekti, trene binip \u015fen \u015fakrak yolculuk edeceklerdi, bense bu k\u00f6hne \u015fehrin kirli meydanlar\u0131nda, e\u011fri b\u00fc\u011fr\u00fc sokaklar\u0131nda tek ba\u015f\u0131ma kalacakt\u0131m.\u201d Annesinin evinde ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi gece sabah\u0131 dar ediyor ve ko\u015fa ko\u015fa trene biniyor.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk defa trene biniyorduk ve az buz bir mutluluk de\u011fildi bu. Her zamanki \u015feyler, evler, a\u011fa\u00e7lar, t\u00fcm d\u00fcnya de\u011fi\u015fivermi\u015fti bizler i\u00e7in. Sanki sihirli bir el reng\u00e2renk resimler diziyordu \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze.<\/p>\n

Her \u015fey yenilenmi\u015f, g\u00fczelle\u015fmi\u015f, bamba\u015fka bir hal alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir k\u00f6pr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerinden, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u00f6y\u00fcn yak\u0131n\u0131ndan ya da bir a\u011fa\u00e7 k\u00fcmesinin aras\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar, y\u00fck ta\u015f\u0131yan tren katar\u0131n\u0131 aya\u011fa kald\u0131r\u0131yordu. Ruhumuzda a\u00e7\u0131lan gizli \u00e7e\u015fmelerden akan mutluluk i\u00e7imize s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yor, dolup ta\u015farak u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z Suriye ovalar\u0131n\u0131 suluyordu.<\/p>\n

Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n kitab\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc korkuttu\u011fu kay\u0131p \u00e7ocukluktan \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 bir resim bu. Son s\u00fcrat giden bir tren, i\u00e7inde \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa, \u015fen \u00e7ocuklar, g\u00fcne\u015f, tarlalar, a\u011fa\u00e7lar.. Basbaya\u011f\u0131 mutlulu\u011fun resmi! \u0130nsan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar vard\u0131r, diyor, ve ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a mutludur. Her \u015feye ra\u011fmen\u2026<\/p>\n

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Nazan Maksudyan\u00a0 Son s\u00fcrat giden bir tren, i\u00e7inde \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa, \u015fen \u00e7ocuklar, g\u00fcne\u015f, tarlalar, a\u011fa\u00e7lar.. \u0130nsan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar vard\u0131r, diyor Antranik Dzarugyan ve ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a mutludur. \u201c\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuz olmad\u0131, \u00e7u\u0308nku\u0308 Ermeni\u2019ydik ve yetimdik.\u201d Antranik Dzarugyan\u2019\u0131n \u00f6zya\u015fam\u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc, hayat\u0131n\u0131n trajedisini yetimhanede ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnleriymi\u015f gibi kurguluyor. 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